I spoke, when I should have been silent. It was a situation in which I had the opportunity to extend grace and understanding but instead allowed my pride and hurt to win and thus overshadow the gospel being lived out in the situation. I did not heed the Holy Spirit’s leading. I followed my own path and in doing so caused hurt to others. I paid no attention to the verses I had recently memorized…
Psalm 141:3-4 “Set a guard, O Lord, over my mouth; keep watch over the door of my lips! Do not let my heart incline to any evil…”
Proverbs 19:11 “Good sense makes one slow to anger and it is his glory to overlook an offense.”
After reflected on the words I had spoken, guilt set in. I realized I had spoken words that should not have been uttered. I showed no grace, no forgiveness. And worse of all, I had memorized words but had not allowed them to penetrate my heart and transform me.
I had to examine my heart, which can be an incredibly painful process when we are honest with what we find there. What I found was ugly and dark.
One of two things could have happened at this point: 1) I could have wallowed in the guilt allowing it to eat away at my soul OR 2) I could ask God to forgive me, ask those offended and hurt to forgive me, and walk in the freedom that forgiveness and grace bring.
Honestly, I sat in the guilt for a few minutes before I cried out for forgiveness from God. And an extraordinary thing happened when I did…peace began to enter my heart and take the place of the ugliness and darkness of sin. Once I had asked forgiveness from those I hurt, peace reigned fully and relationships were restored but not to the previous status. I believe to an even higher one…one that is more grace-filled, understanding, and mindful of each other.
A childhood song came to mind during these two days and I kept singing it over and over to myself…
“He’s still working on me
To make me what I need to be
It took him just a week to make the moon and stars
The sun and the earth and Jupiter and Mars
How loving and patient He must be
‘Cause He’s still workin’ on me”
Praise God that He didn’t create us and leave us alone. Instead, “when the goodness and loving kindness of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of works done by us in righteousness, but according to his own mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewal of the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us richly through Jesus Christ our Savior.” (Titus 3:4-6)
If my sanctification is a result of my efforts I will come up short every.single.time. I will fail. I will never look more like Jesus. But God, in his loving kindness sent Jesus to die for me and the Holy Spirit to renew me. Not only that, but we have the hope that “he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” (Philippians 1:6)
That’s good news.
2 thoughts on “He’s Still Working on Me”
Ciao cara MacKenzie,
ti ringrazio tanto per le tue riflessioni, hai un dono speciale nel mettere in parole concetti profondi! Mi ha fatto del bene leggere le tue considerazioni e le promesse del Signore.
Spero che tu e la tua famiglia stiate bene e che siate partiti bene in questo nuovo anno 2017. Che il Signore vi benedica tantissimo,
at my age He has been working on me a long time, but he never gives up on me and I really need a quick kick quite often. He is watching after you so just let him lead . always enjoy your letters and seeing how children are growing you are in my prayers daily and my love ms billie